Day of Positivity

I woke up yesterday, after a weekend of sleeping on my floor due to friends visiting, surprisingly ill. It was one of those things where I slowly felt my body telling me something a lot worse was on the way. Nevertheless, I ignored the warning signs and found myself with a massive headache, lost voice, and unable to leave my bed until 2 pm on Sunday.

In my creativity class last week, we discussed setting aside days of positivity and days of service in which you commit the entire day to a positive attitude or helping others regardless of the day's events. In reality, this is easy enough for me, especially in the first warm days of the Spring; everyone is in a good mood and there's no reason for me not to be as well. Until there is a reason.

Knowing that I would wake up feeling sick again, I decided last night that today would be my day of positivity. When all I want to do is stay in bed and rest, disassociating myself from everything and everyone, I have now made today's purpose about not letting my lack of voice or constant headache affect the way I act, talk, or even think.

Have you ever noticed that when you're sick you tend to be nicer– more gentle? Some of you may strongly disagree knowing your tendency to be crabby or needy when sick. However, I always find myself talking to others with a more gentle tone. The world slows down for me when I'm sick, causing me to almost walk in slow motion. With the natural lack of energy that illness leaves me with, I've noticed that I do not have time to be angry with people. This clarity is something that should not take a bed ridden person to recognize. Why is it that when I am sick that I can clearly see what and who around me actually deserves my attention and focus?

With a day of positivity, I am trying to reflect on this slow-motion-clarity that comes with being sick. I am trying to focus on those around me that matter and have a contagious aura of positivity. If I can carry this attitude throughout feeling sick, there is no reason I cannot have a day of positivity everyday.